Wednesday, September 10, 2014

4's a family


My last post was almost two years ago. That was so long ago.... Although I am determined to really get this blog going but here I am one post every two years?! that is frustrating.

As of last post I was so anxious about my pregnancy.. and you guess it that little boy there in green shirt was the one I was so anxious about before,  if he ever gonna make it. And he did he was a bouncing baby boy when he came out, bigger than his older brother 3.5kgs, 53cm on May 21, 2014 at 8:36am via cesarean section. After my loss to the in 2011 I got him, he is my rainbow baby. God is so wonderful. He is so gracious to us...And we love him so dearly, most of all Bari. He was so excited when he came out. He could not contain himself....
That is him holding his baby brother for the first time. I think Benjamin (yes! that's his name) was just 2 weeks old here. He was so happy he really love his brother so much. Actually he loves babies so much. My sister gave birth to a baby girl last April and he has been guarding her all the time like she is  16 year old little sister who would run away any time with a cute boy next door.  I am exaggerating, but we really see it that way, Bari is such a wonderful big brother.
This is Benjamin at almost a month old. Oh! how I miss him looking like this. Yeah I know, it's been a long time since I ever write. Now maybe this time I can try really hard to keep this blog updated. Because I really love writing. And I've been following quite a few blogs and every time I read their day to day posts I keep telling myself to update this blog. Hopefully I really can now.

Look at how big he is already now. And all the silliness that he learned already. He is quite a handful actually. But he is a sweet, sweet boy. Hope to post more as the days come by...

So here we are now. We are 4 in a family already. Me, Elben, Bari and Benjamin... that's my family



Monday, October 15, 2012

This time around...



I am 7 weeks pregnant with my second baby (3rd pregnancy, I had an blighted ovum). And I decided to write my pregnancy journey. I am more concern this time because of my previous one which was,as I have mentioned,  an blighted ovum.  I just couldn’t rest my mind until i get that ultrasound check up. But my doctor is not yet here, she in in Cebu for some seminar.  I already went to the free clinic for the meantime, because I really like my OB I would really wait for her. In the free clinic the doctor never requested for an ultrasound even if I mentioned it to her, what they are concern right now is that I do have an Urinary Tract Infection. They say it is common during your first trimester and that it can be treated immediately, so I am on medication for a week. I never had this with my first baby, although my OB saw some signs she said only said that I should drink more water and it did wash away all that white blood cells in my urine.  This time the doctor said that the WBC is just too many that i really need to be treated.
So here I am right now on my 7th week, what I am feeling?:
1.       Fatigue- over fatigue, as in to the nth power. I want to sleep all the time, and I feel so tired. But I cannot get enough sleep at nigh, which brings me to my number 2.
2.       Lack of sleep at night/difficulty in sleeping- it irritates me so much when my husband is so sound asleep and I am wide awake listening to ever bit of night noise. And to think that I went to bed earlier than him. Sometimes I have to wake him up just to keep me company.
3.       Abdominal discomfort- this one bothers me alot. I had something like this with my first baby but it was more severe and my OB gave me something, she said that it would calm my uterus  she was affraid that I am having a threatened abortion. But this time it is minimal but still it bothers me. When I search for it on the internet everbody says that it is just normal(there is no bleeding). I wasn’t able to mention this to the doctor at the free clinic because at that time it disappears. Now it is back again, I told my husband that this could be my Monday morning sickness, for it comes every Monday morning and disappears by Tuesday afternoon.
4.       To much gas/indigestion- gross.. but yes I fart all the time. I find a away to combat morning sickness, by not getting up quickly or by eating something before standing up in  the morning. But man, I could never find a way to combat my indigestion. I fart all the time and I went to bathroom all the time to dispose everything that I am eating. I am not puking through my mouth but through my ass...I know it is gross but that what I am right now..
5.       And last but not the least the ANTS- yes you read it right ants.. as in crawling ants anywhere follow me because I eat a lot.. And man are they pregnant also? How can they smell my chicken siopao in just seconds, I cannot eat something without the appearance of ants, especially here in my office.  I ate alot , as in every hour I am looking for something, if not I am going to puke. So far I haven’t puke, I am not a puker, so that’s why the ants are here because I carry a treat anywhere I go.
the dreaded ants!!!
So far, that’s what I am feeling/doing at 7th week of pregnancy. And nobody here in the office knows that I am pregnant. Only me and my family first, that blighted ghost is still hunting me. It’s been more than I year since my BO, but I am still afraid of that ghost.  My family can sense it so they are not also announcing it to the world even if I did not warn them. I know that feel the same way, afraid that it might happen again. But I have not feel all those above when I had that BO, so my husband keep reassuring me and himself also that this time, there is a baby.  So please anyone tell me that this time around this one is real...